“Mommy, can we have some candy”
“No, no candy in the mornings as I eye the basketful of Christmas goodies we’ve received from myself, grandparents, neighbors and friends.” They really shouldn’t eat any of it, I should just throw it away when they aren’t looking. I know they will hate me when they are fat teenage girls and can’t understand why they are hated for their bodies. Do I have the strength to disappoint them now instead of putting it off? They’ve all had their Christmas crunch for breakfast and the little one is on her second cup of milk this morning instead of real food. How many times do I tell them no before I will give in?
“Diligently keep the words of this Covenant. Do what they say so that you will live well and wisely in every detail.
“you know the conditions in which we lived in Egypt and how we crisscrossed through nations in our travels. You got an eyeful of their obscenities, their wood and stone, silver and gold junk-gods. Don’t let down your guard lest even now, today someone –man or woman, clan or tribe –gets sidetracked from God, our God, and gets involved with the no-gods of the nations; lest some poisonous weed sprout and spread among you.
“I’ll just live the way I please, thank you,” and ends up ruining life for everybody. God won’t let him off the hook. God’s anger and jealousy will erupt like a volcano against that person. The curses written in this book will bury him.
Come back to God with your whole heart and obey him with your whole heart and soul and God, your God will restore everything you have lost. He’ll have compassion on you; he’ll come back and pick up the pieces from all the places where you were scattered.
Look at what I’ve done for you today; I’ve placed in front of you
Life and Good
Death and Evil.
And I command you today; Love God, your God. Walk in his ways. Keep his commandments that you will live, really live, live exuberantly, blessed by God.
But I warn you: if you have a change of heart, refuse to listen obediently, and willfully go off to serve and worship other gods, you will most certainly die. (parts of Deuteronomy 28, 29, 30)
and I watch the kids and myself glued to their computer devices, I wonder if this is god to us?
I was wrong in my last post, chocolate isn’t where bliss is found, bliss is found in God. When I’m worshipping Him and He fills me and He takes away my burdens, and His presence is so good the joy brings tears to my eyes. He asked me to give up sugar and He would show me the wonders of His greatness, so I stopped and everytime I walked by all the Christmas treats I thought about how my God loves me and He promises me great delights and wonders, but I must first make room for Him, I must sacrifice something small for His endless promises of wonderfulness. So I keep my eyes open and I wait for His gifts, they are small but amazing. The laughter of the kids as they run through the house, the smile in my mom’s eyes to have her brood all around. The kindness on my daughters lips as she deals with her cousins.
But last night I had too many, and I woke up with a terrible sugar low and cried for at least an hour and I think this is empty. This is not what I want, the sweet taste is a lie upon my tongue that steals joy.
I want God, I want life lived exuberantly and full of Him, but I fail, we fail. We forget how wonderful He is and settle for lies. God have mercy on us, show us Your way, help us.
(note: decided to give them each 2 pieces and threw the rest away.)